Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Making a choice wasn't so hard.

This week I had to make a few choices that will inevitable change my life. Yeah, dramatic I know. I have been doing for everyone else that somehow I have totally forgotten about my family. Especially my husband. The one person in my life that has been by my side for almost 16 years. If you know me.. you know that is not an easy task.

It isn't always easy being married and it isn't always easy being a mom and maybe by doing all of these other things I was somehow covering up some crazy part of something. i don't know. Well I was worried about letting the kids at the school down. I was worried about people being mad at me. I was more worried about losing my husband so I went in and spoke to the schools principal. She was great!
I have made the decision to step down and PTA president. In the back of my head I feel a bit strange. I made a commitment. I don't like going back on my commitments. But my commitment to my family is my first priority.

I love my husband. I am still in love with him after 16 years. IDK. But i do know that I want to be with him. When PTA and SYA are over. When the kids graduate from school and move on. When grandchildren begin to arrive I want to share those times with him. No one else. Him. I will work on it everyday. I will make him happy everyday.