Today I am at home by myself.
My family is in Louisiana at Mardi Gras.
I am working on homework that should have been turned in on Thursday.
And college... It isn't like all that other stuff. It actually takes some work. Last semester I just blew through it. This semester is actually making me do the work I should have done last semester along with this semester too. That is not OK
The person whom I thought was my best friend has turned out to be someone that I don't really want to be around. She keeps hurting me and says she didn't realize it.
Then she crapped on one of our friends last night like it was nothing. No big deal. Why do we take everything so personal...
My daughter is in Pre-puberty? Is that a word? She is having some learning troubles also. I am not sure how to handle all of that.
A boy at school was causing trouble but he is in a Detention school for another matter for another week. We will see about that when he comes back.
I have so much going on that I feel like my head is going to explode.
My husband is not at all happy. Thinking of leaving actually is what he told me yesterday. Then he took my kids and headed out of state.
I am just not at all in a good place right now. I am still in my pajama's and it is 6: 45 pm.
I want to just let this all go away. I don't know what to do anymore. I am overwhelmed and my husband thinks I am just making excuses.
Why do I have to be the way I am? Why do I have to be so persistant? So analytical...
Why can't I just accept that someone might know more than me?
OMG!!!!! What can I do to make it all better?
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Facebooks 25 Random Thoughts
Today on FB one of my friends posted the note "25 Random Questions about me" The words he used were very profound and I found them to be much more than just "Random Thoughts" I think they are things we all need to hear.
My friend was Blessed to have a wonderful family. He shares many of these ideals with you. Enjoy his note, I will then post mine. It is not so in depth but it tells alot about me.
You should take the challenge and write 25 Random Things about yourself and share it with your friends and family. Get to know someone you haven't seen in a while.
Love to everyone,
Catherine
25 Random and Not So Random Things about Me, Brandon Roberts
1. I’m a HUGE Longhorn fan. Dad started taking me to games when I was 3 and I haven’t stopped going since. He also started me snow skiing when I was 3, and I haven’t stopped going since.
2. I have the greatest parents a person could ever ask for…I certainly don’t deserve them but am trying my best to emulate them.
3. My wife and my children are my lifeblood. I’ve always prided myself on being independent and self-sufficient, but I honestly don’t know how I could get by without them.
4. I’ve been most fortunate in life regarding friendships... I try every day to be as good of a friend to them as they always are to me.
5. I absolutely love competing…preferably in sporting events though my body has told me recently that it’s not such a great idea nowadays.
6. Golf is much more than a pastime to me…it’s a passion and something I find to be extremely enjoyable. It may be the only thing I’m willing to admit that I’m addicted to.
7. Unlike others I know, I’ve been given the ability to leave work in its rightful place…at work. Bringing it home with you doesn’t “work.”
8. I firmly believe that a person should enjoy what they do for a living. I realize this can sound odd, but if I’m happy at work (and leave it there), it makes me a better father, son, husband, and friend.
9. I loathe anyone who doesn’t appreciate their family. Take care of your family, no matter the circumstances – if you had incredible parents who gave you more than you could ever have asked like I did, then thank them profusely and make it your life ambition to give the same love and support to your children. If, however, you did not have a positive experience, then I beg you to let all the pain and disappointment you have serve as motivation to give your children everything you wanted and never got.
10. “Luck is what happens when preparation meets opportunity.” Darrell K. Royal
11. I believe there are a lot of different ways to exercise and stay healthy, and running isn’t one of them. I’ve run most of my life; from jogging out country roads in junior high to marathons in my 30s. Save your knees and your heart and find something better than pounding the pavement to stay in shape. Need some evidence? Try Jim Fixx, the father of running. Yes, he died while jogging from a heart attack. Not enough? Ask yourself why so many athletes (baseball, football, sprinters, even golfers) look so healthy and “in shape?” Now, consider what a world class marathon runner looks like. You know why they don’t look healthy and in shape? Because they’re not! “If I die, I want to be sick.” Abe Lemons, on why he doesn’t jog.
12. I work hard every day to be positive and optimistic. A positive attitude might just be the most important character trait that a person can have. We can’t change the events that happen in our lives, but our attitude about how to deal with the event will almost always determine the outcome of the event. “I had the blues because I had no shoes until upon the street, I met a man that had no feet.” Ancient Persian saying
13. I also try daily to stop myself from judging others. It’s perfectly fine to pass judgment on others, as long as you’ve reached perfection already.
14. My life motto: Expect the best, prepare for the worst, but most importantly, enjoy it all.
15. Although I was a high school football coach for 8 years, I find myself laughing every time I see or hear about a coach “motivating” his players with a bunch of rah, rah stuff. I often told my players, “if you need me to throw clip boards and punch lockers and shout Knute Rockne quotes in the locker room to get you excited about playing football, then maybe you need to find something else to do.” I believe there’s a big difference between motivational speakers and inspirational speakers.
16. I think many of our worldly problems would be solved if people would be proactive, not reactive. “If it is to be, it is up to me.” I’m a patient man, but I have very little for people who wait and hope when they could get off their cans and make a difference. You know that old saying, “I have hope in one hand and a pile of crap in the other, and they’re worth about the same.” I think there’s a big difference between hope and faith.
17. I love my wife unconditionally. Now, she makes this fairly easy because of the person she is and the mother she is to my children. We have our rough spots like most other people, but I contribute our success to this: Don’t wish for a happy marriage; earn it. It’s not important which side of the bed that your spouse sleeps on, only that you’ve earned the right to sleep next to her (him). I was fortunate enough to learn early on that anything really worth having, anything special, should be hard to get. Else, it wouldn’t be special. I think my marriage is special.
18. I don’t know what I would do without fellowship.
19. I don’t understand the infatuation with reality shows; I put them in the same category as pro wrestling.
20. I’ve tried most of my adult life to stay up on current events and what’s going on in the world, but I can’t for the life of me get interested in politics. I stay informed enough to be able to hold a average conversation on the subject, but very rarely find I enjoy said conversation. Yes, I’d much rather debate the use of the asterisk is sports record books or who is the greatest golfer of all time (Tiger vs. Nicklaus). I doubt this makes me a better person, but it sure makes me a happier one.
21. Every once in a while I catch myself wondering what it would be like to have a little boy running around the house; but EVERY DAY my two little angels do something to make me realize I wouldn’t change a single thing.
22. I VERY MUCH envy my dog; not that I treat him like royalty or anything, I just really appreciate his carefree and worry free lifestyle. I also miss that wonderful energy of my youth.
23. My idea of a very relaxing and peaceful time is sitting a deer blind or wade fishing a mile off shore; not sun bathing or having some masseuse rubbing oily stuff on me.
24. When it’s time for sleep, I can hit the pillow and be out in under 5 minutes; and yes, I fully appreciate how much of a treat that is.
25. I believe in having a relationship with a higher power. Whether that entails going to church twice a week or meditating in your backyard or just saying a prayer during the day. To me, the importance lies with the relationship itself, not how or where it takes place.
WOW, I hope you enjoyed his thoughts. Now here is mine!
25 Random Things About Me, Catherine Leggett
1. I am a Freshman in college at 37.
2. I love dill pickles more than chocolate or ice cream.
3. My children are only 15 months apart.
4. My brother and I are only 11 months apart.
5. I love to speak in public.
6. I hate to clean my house and very rarely do fold and put away the laundry. I really need to dust too.
7. I need to lose 50 lbs. I have lost 8 so far.
8. I have been on Disability since I was 17 years old because of a seizure disorder.
9. I had brain surgery 6-28-01. Tj was only 3 months old.
10. I love to make people laugh. But most of all I love to laugh.
11.I have always hoped that one day I will make a difference in someones life.
12. I met Michael Johnson at the Atlanta Airport and got his autograph just before the olympics.
13. People with no commonsense drive me insane. I mean really... think about it...
14. Sometimes I wish I could say NO to all of my volunteering. I do so much. I guess I figure if I don't do it it won't get done right. lol Or good enough.
15. I am a bit of a control freak. Perfectionist, not really, it should just be done right the first time... don't half a$$ it. I don't have time to redo it for you.
16. I watch Hannah Montana with the kids.
17. I wish I had a magic wand and could make the world a better place for my children to grow up in. A safer place, one where they feel comfortable playing in the front yard. Or where I feel comfortable with them in the front yard.
18. I love to plan large parties and functions. When the picture in my head is taking place in front of me I feel so accomplished.
19. Bon Jovi ROCKS Then and Now!
20. I digitally scrapbook and have been on several creative teams and a Moderator on several sites.
21. I don't remember a large amount of my youth and young adulthood. Memory loss is due to my seizures. FB has helped me to remember alot of things. Thanks everyone.
22. I just got a new camera. My dream camera. And I am going crazy figuring it out. All of the settings and fun things I can do with it. It is a Canon Rebel Xt. Love Love it!
23. I am totally a cat person. The only problem is that they are just as hard headed as me and won't cuddle when I want them to. lol
24.I really love to eat home cooking. But I hate to cook. I am always so busy. Coming and going that there doesn't seem to be enough time in the day. I need to prioritize.
25. I have a gym membership. I have for about 8 months. I have only gone to the gym about a dozen times. OOPS. no time! lol
They are a bit different.
My friend was Blessed to have a wonderful family. He shares many of these ideals with you. Enjoy his note, I will then post mine. It is not so in depth but it tells alot about me.
You should take the challenge and write 25 Random Things about yourself and share it with your friends and family. Get to know someone you haven't seen in a while.
Love to everyone,
Catherine
25 Random and Not So Random Things about Me, Brandon Roberts
1. I’m a HUGE Longhorn fan. Dad started taking me to games when I was 3 and I haven’t stopped going since. He also started me snow skiing when I was 3, and I haven’t stopped going since.
2. I have the greatest parents a person could ever ask for…I certainly don’t deserve them but am trying my best to emulate them.
3. My wife and my children are my lifeblood. I’ve always prided myself on being independent and self-sufficient, but I honestly don’t know how I could get by without them.
4. I’ve been most fortunate in life regarding friendships... I try every day to be as good of a friend to them as they always are to me.
5. I absolutely love competing…preferably in sporting events though my body has told me recently that it’s not such a great idea nowadays.
6. Golf is much more than a pastime to me…it’s a passion and something I find to be extremely enjoyable. It may be the only thing I’m willing to admit that I’m addicted to.
7. Unlike others I know, I’ve been given the ability to leave work in its rightful place…at work. Bringing it home with you doesn’t “work.”
8. I firmly believe that a person should enjoy what they do for a living. I realize this can sound odd, but if I’m happy at work (and leave it there), it makes me a better father, son, husband, and friend.
9. I loathe anyone who doesn’t appreciate their family. Take care of your family, no matter the circumstances – if you had incredible parents who gave you more than you could ever have asked like I did, then thank them profusely and make it your life ambition to give the same love and support to your children. If, however, you did not have a positive experience, then I beg you to let all the pain and disappointment you have serve as motivation to give your children everything you wanted and never got.
10. “Luck is what happens when preparation meets opportunity.” Darrell K. Royal
11. I believe there are a lot of different ways to exercise and stay healthy, and running isn’t one of them. I’ve run most of my life; from jogging out country roads in junior high to marathons in my 30s. Save your knees and your heart and find something better than pounding the pavement to stay in shape. Need some evidence? Try Jim Fixx, the father of running. Yes, he died while jogging from a heart attack. Not enough? Ask yourself why so many athletes (baseball, football, sprinters, even golfers) look so healthy and “in shape?” Now, consider what a world class marathon runner looks like. You know why they don’t look healthy and in shape? Because they’re not! “If I die, I want to be sick.” Abe Lemons, on why he doesn’t jog.
12. I work hard every day to be positive and optimistic. A positive attitude might just be the most important character trait that a person can have. We can’t change the events that happen in our lives, but our attitude about how to deal with the event will almost always determine the outcome of the event. “I had the blues because I had no shoes until upon the street, I met a man that had no feet.” Ancient Persian saying
13. I also try daily to stop myself from judging others. It’s perfectly fine to pass judgment on others, as long as you’ve reached perfection already.
14. My life motto: Expect the best, prepare for the worst, but most importantly, enjoy it all.
15. Although I was a high school football coach for 8 years, I find myself laughing every time I see or hear about a coach “motivating” his players with a bunch of rah, rah stuff. I often told my players, “if you need me to throw clip boards and punch lockers and shout Knute Rockne quotes in the locker room to get you excited about playing football, then maybe you need to find something else to do.” I believe there’s a big difference between motivational speakers and inspirational speakers.
16. I think many of our worldly problems would be solved if people would be proactive, not reactive. “If it is to be, it is up to me.” I’m a patient man, but I have very little for people who wait and hope when they could get off their cans and make a difference. You know that old saying, “I have hope in one hand and a pile of crap in the other, and they’re worth about the same.” I think there’s a big difference between hope and faith.
17. I love my wife unconditionally. Now, she makes this fairly easy because of the person she is and the mother she is to my children. We have our rough spots like most other people, but I contribute our success to this: Don’t wish for a happy marriage; earn it. It’s not important which side of the bed that your spouse sleeps on, only that you’ve earned the right to sleep next to her (him). I was fortunate enough to learn early on that anything really worth having, anything special, should be hard to get. Else, it wouldn’t be special. I think my marriage is special.
18. I don’t know what I would do without fellowship.
19. I don’t understand the infatuation with reality shows; I put them in the same category as pro wrestling.
20. I’ve tried most of my adult life to stay up on current events and what’s going on in the world, but I can’t for the life of me get interested in politics. I stay informed enough to be able to hold a average conversation on the subject, but very rarely find I enjoy said conversation. Yes, I’d much rather debate the use of the asterisk is sports record books or who is the greatest golfer of all time (Tiger vs. Nicklaus). I doubt this makes me a better person, but it sure makes me a happier one.
21. Every once in a while I catch myself wondering what it would be like to have a little boy running around the house; but EVERY DAY my two little angels do something to make me realize I wouldn’t change a single thing.
22. I VERY MUCH envy my dog; not that I treat him like royalty or anything, I just really appreciate his carefree and worry free lifestyle. I also miss that wonderful energy of my youth.
23. My idea of a very relaxing and peaceful time is sitting a deer blind or wade fishing a mile off shore; not sun bathing or having some masseuse rubbing oily stuff on me.
24. When it’s time for sleep, I can hit the pillow and be out in under 5 minutes; and yes, I fully appreciate how much of a treat that is.
25. I believe in having a relationship with a higher power. Whether that entails going to church twice a week or meditating in your backyard or just saying a prayer during the day. To me, the importance lies with the relationship itself, not how or where it takes place.
WOW, I hope you enjoyed his thoughts. Now here is mine!
25 Random Things About Me, Catherine Leggett
1. I am a Freshman in college at 37.
2. I love dill pickles more than chocolate or ice cream.
3. My children are only 15 months apart.
4. My brother and I are only 11 months apart.
5. I love to speak in public.
6. I hate to clean my house and very rarely do fold and put away the laundry. I really need to dust too.
7. I need to lose 50 lbs. I have lost 8 so far.
8. I have been on Disability since I was 17 years old because of a seizure disorder.
9. I had brain surgery 6-28-01. Tj was only 3 months old.
10. I love to make people laugh. But most of all I love to laugh.
11.I have always hoped that one day I will make a difference in someones life.
12. I met Michael Johnson at the Atlanta Airport and got his autograph just before the olympics.
13. People with no commonsense drive me insane. I mean really... think about it...
14. Sometimes I wish I could say NO to all of my volunteering. I do so much. I guess I figure if I don't do it it won't get done right. lol Or good enough.
15. I am a bit of a control freak. Perfectionist, not really, it should just be done right the first time... don't half a$$ it. I don't have time to redo it for you.
16. I watch Hannah Montana with the kids.
17. I wish I had a magic wand and could make the world a better place for my children to grow up in. A safer place, one where they feel comfortable playing in the front yard. Or where I feel comfortable with them in the front yard.
18. I love to plan large parties and functions. When the picture in my head is taking place in front of me I feel so accomplished.
19. Bon Jovi ROCKS Then and Now!
20. I digitally scrapbook and have been on several creative teams and a Moderator on several sites.
21. I don't remember a large amount of my youth and young adulthood. Memory loss is due to my seizures. FB has helped me to remember alot of things. Thanks everyone.
22. I just got a new camera. My dream camera. And I am going crazy figuring it out. All of the settings and fun things I can do with it. It is a Canon Rebel Xt. Love Love it!
23. I am totally a cat person. The only problem is that they are just as hard headed as me and won't cuddle when I want them to. lol
24.I really love to eat home cooking. But I hate to cook. I am always so busy. Coming and going that there doesn't seem to be enough time in the day. I need to prioritize.
25. I have a gym membership. I have for about 8 months. I have only gone to the gym about a dozen times. OOPS. no time! lol
They are a bit different.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Tj is growing up.
Well today TJ lost one of his teeth. It is really his 3rd one but this time it was awesome. I didn't even know it was loose. He showed his daddy but then he realized that he likes to pull them out. So he quickly retreated to a good distance so he could discuss his options. He wanted to know if I thought he would look cute with out his top tooth. "Well of course!" I said. No one on this planet is as cute as you. Well in a few minutes he had to leave for gymnastics so he had to inhale a chicken patty sandwich. (his fave meal, absolutely dry, with a slice of cheese) All of a sudden in a very not so sure way he said, "I think my tooth fell out!" I turned to look and he was holding it in his hand. Then he said,"Yelp, it sure did!" Oh but wait there is more. He wanted to see what the new hole in his head felt like. So he stuck his finger in his mouth. Upon examining his finger, what do you think he saw? That is right! BLOOD!!!!! TJ ran to the bathroom as fast as he could all the while screaming that he is going to bleed to death. His dad and I tried not to laugh. He is so darn cute, you just can't help but giggle at him. He returned after he rinsed a new man. Of course, he had a tissue with the residual blood on it so he could show us all the great agony he had been under. When just a split second ago he had said,"I think my tooth fell out!" without a whimper or a wail.
Oh my goodness what a completely innocent soul my TJ is.
Oh my goodness what a completely innocent soul my TJ is.
Will she grow out of it?
My daughter has been a whiner since way back. She whines at the drop of the proverbial hat. The noise bothers me so much that I cringe knowing that she is about to erupt into that ear piercing siren until she gets her way. Well if you have ever met me, you will know that she doesn't get her way very often. Unless of course I just want her to shut it up.
Her progress report came today. For the first time she had a failing grade on it. Instead of telling me she went out to play. My friend asked me if I had seen my children's progress reports because her daughter did not get an acceptable grade (80) so I went fishing in her backpack. When I saw the grade I immediately went to find her. I asked her to please come inside. We need to discuss your progress report. OH NO, WRONG WORDS!!
I should have tempted her into the house with food. She began to make noises and throw fits and scream it's not my fault before she ever got to the door.
Well her dad is not home yet. He is going to be angry. I do take part of the blame. The subject is Language Arts, and the grades are low on her vocabulary tests. Shouldn't we help her study? Is it up to us that she has study skills instilled in her at this age so that she will grow up knowing how important it is to know the work?
She will be able to bring this grade up but I am afraid of the noise her dad is going to make when he gets home. lol
I need to go get the cotton ready now.
Her progress report came today. For the first time she had a failing grade on it. Instead of telling me she went out to play. My friend asked me if I had seen my children's progress reports because her daughter did not get an acceptable grade (80) so I went fishing in her backpack. When I saw the grade I immediately went to find her. I asked her to please come inside. We need to discuss your progress report. OH NO, WRONG WORDS!!
I should have tempted her into the house with food. She began to make noises and throw fits and scream it's not my fault before she ever got to the door.
Well her dad is not home yet. He is going to be angry. I do take part of the blame. The subject is Language Arts, and the grades are low on her vocabulary tests. Shouldn't we help her study? Is it up to us that she has study skills instilled in her at this age so that she will grow up knowing how important it is to know the work?
She will be able to bring this grade up but I am afraid of the noise her dad is going to make when he gets home. lol
I need to go get the cotton ready now.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Boy Trouble
My Caiti is in 3rd grade. She is my sweet baby girl and I love her so very much. There is a boy in the 3rd grade that earlier this school year started to do things that were of a inapropriatte manner. He had other students write poems, notes and say things to her. The words sex were involved several times.
This is all very upsetting. Last Thursday, this boy said somethings to by daughters best friend, at an after school program, that were on the same lines. The only problem is that they were much worse. He used visuals, and said he wanted to f*** her. He Stated a few other disturbing things and then said he knew exactly what he would do to her.
I have gone through the channels and after a long weekend of studying and not taking no for an answer I believe that the School, District and After school program are taking a proactive stance on this matter.
This child, in my opinion, needs to be looked at. What is going on at his house? Why does he think this is OK. He is definetly bullying my daughter.
Uggh.
Dear Lord, Please let the children be innocent. Let the children be free of this behavior. Let those that heard these words forget them. Please Lord, Let the children be free of humility.
Thanks for letting me rant...
This is all very upsetting. Last Thursday, this boy said somethings to by daughters best friend, at an after school program, that were on the same lines. The only problem is that they were much worse. He used visuals, and said he wanted to f*** her. He Stated a few other disturbing things and then said he knew exactly what he would do to her.
I have gone through the channels and after a long weekend of studying and not taking no for an answer I believe that the School, District and After school program are taking a proactive stance on this matter.
This child, in my opinion, needs to be looked at. What is going on at his house? Why does he think this is OK. He is definetly bullying my daughter.
Uggh.
Dear Lord, Please let the children be innocent. Let the children be free of this behavior. Let those that heard these words forget them. Please Lord, Let the children be free of humility.
Thanks for letting me rant...
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Reflecting
Today I am reflecting on my life. I sometimes wonder why my entire life has seemed to have been an up hill struggle. I do thank the Lord for all that he has given me, maybe I don't thank him enough. I know in my head that all that he brings to me is to teach me so that I will be able to help those who are faced with the same challenge in the future.
How do I tell him that I am tired of the struggle? How do i tell him that I just want to have a few years with your family that are pleasant and no one gets hurt. Would I have to sell my soul? I won't do that.
I will keep fighting and struggling. One day my life will be all that I have worked for. My children and my husband will be with me and we will reflect again on the past and remember all of the good times. There have been so many good times.
How do I tell him that I am tired of the struggle? How do i tell him that I just want to have a few years with your family that are pleasant and no one gets hurt. Would I have to sell my soul? I won't do that.
I will keep fighting and struggling. One day my life will be all that I have worked for. My children and my husband will be with me and we will reflect again on the past and remember all of the good times. There have been so many good times.
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